“And there goes the coin…up…up…down…down…down…and ohhh!! Where is it???? Damn..Stuck in that tree,” said Clair.
Clair is this beautiful British girl, who is a staunch believer of some silly “signs” (coin flipping being one of them). Every day she comes to this park on the waterside and flips this coin to make herself believe that Victor would show up one day. This is the place where both of them use to come, flip a coin-heads we get married, tails we break up.
Yes she was in love! Or in Victor’s love. A guy who told her that “I love you truly, madly and deeply”- who told her that he would never leave her- and who, while leaving, told her that he would come back. Claire waited and waited and one day she got the news of Victor’s new girl friend. She cried and promised herself to not to wait for him anymore. But then she remembers what he told her that night………..
Clair: Happy Birthday Victor!
Victor: Thank you!
Clair: Don’t go……I want to be with you for the rest of my life no matter what it takes.
Victor: But I don’t! You were a wrong choice and I don’t want to regret for the rest of my life.
Clair: But you said you loved me (cries…cries and cries)
After whole long conversation Victor admitted that he had to do this because there are issues in the family and as soon as they get settled he would come back and would be the happiest person on this earth to marry her.
Victor: But don’t think of me, I might come back or I might not. Just go on with your life.
And since then Clair visit this place every evening, flips the coin –Heads we get married, tails we break up-, and still jump out of happiness if it turns out be “Heads”. It’s been 3 years now and she has never missed out even a single evening. What is this thing that keeps her motivated to go there and flip that coin? That coin which somehow rests to show up “heads”, or her stubbornness to not to let go off or may be her irrational belief that he would show up some day? Be it anything but in her heart she knows this very well that Victor would never return and has left her forever.
She visits that place every day because she’s aware that she can never fall in Love again, she can never Love anyone like she loved him, and she wants to keep him alive in her heart so that her heart never feels alone. Of course, she’ll get married one day-she has to, she’ll trust someone-she has to, she’ll say ‘I love you’-she has to, she’ll kiss someone-she has to…but she’ll never fall in love again.
This is the last time she’s doing this and if the coin falls in her favor she would go and find out victor and if it doesn’t…..she would take it as a sign. A sign that victor doesn’t love her anymore, he’s actually not going to come and he has started loving someone else.
And now when the coin is stuck in that tree, she very carefully climbs it up, pick up the coin (by making sure that it is still oriented the same way) and comes down……..she looks at the coin….sighs……..
Heads or Tails…..???……??……….No one knows!!
P.S: Sometimes it is important to let go of because it’s not a fairy tale and there’s no white horse.
P.P.S: Read this with this song in the back ground (it’ll give the feel I bet)..I suck at writing stories. 😦